The badges above represent some jobs performed by gallant men and women. Those "Behind The Badge" may be a Police Officer, Sheriff, State Highway Patrol Officer, Firefighter, Emergency Medical Technician, Federal Law Enforcement Officer, Immigration Officer, or Emergency Phone Operator. In countries outside of the U.S., the job titles may vary slightly but the work is the same.

Most of us don't give it a second thought when we call 911 or our local emergency number. The people on the other end of the phone take our calls. Soon, someone arrives to help us. Police officers, firefirghters and a host of other First Responders come to our rescue. Be it a car accident, a cat in a tree, a fire, fighting terrorism, or a hostage situation, they come to our aid. Without fail, we can count on them to get us through our crisis.

As heroic as they are, these vallant men and women do become affected by the events they deal with in the line of duty. They also become very good at hiding how they feel after a long day of saving us. Depression and PTSD, among other health issues, can be the result. Sometimes, when the stressors of the job are bottled up and become overwhelming, we lose a hero to suicide.

For many reasons, the actual suicide statistics for those "Behind The Badge" are under reported. Some agencies report that twice as many officers die by suicide than are killed in the line of duty.

The next time you come across someone "Behind The Badge" remember to thank them for all that they do.

If you know an officer who is suffering, please reach out to them. Do whatever it takes to keep them safe. For information on how you may help, visit the resources at the bottom of this page or click the "Home" button below. There is a wealth of information on our site and in our online library.

If you would like your loved one "Behind The Badge" included on this memorial, click on the email link at the bottom of the page. Send their name, their dates, city, state, and country that they lived and worked, agency they worked for and their rank and badge number, if applicable. You may also include a photo and memorial website link. We welcome those from countries outside of the U.S. to submit to this memorial. We will add your submission at our first available moment. You need not be a member of our organization or any of our affiliates to send a submission.

Please take a moment and read the names and view the faces of some of the brave people who have lost their lives to suicide.

Behind The Badge

It doesn't matter if it is day or night
You can pick up the phone and dial 911
Gallant men and women come on the run
Every dilemma they are ready to fight
Always keeping us safe and secure
With a helpful response you can be sure
Reassuring us that everything will be alright.

When the trauma of each crisis accumulates
Sometimes, their family doesn't understand
But they may reach out with a helping hand
In hopes that their assistance isn't too late
The demons build for always taking a stand
In defense of those they serve and protect
Our help in return, they will often reject
Their stress worsens with every command.

Alone in the silence, there comes a thought
The events of the day become overwhelming
Each of the scenes played back, ever consuming
This fight is one that can no longer be fought
The visions and the sounds of each event
Of the serious calls that they were sent
To no avail, relief from their turmoil is sought.

A hero loses the battle for their own life
Where was everyone during their strife?
It was coming, why didn't they see it?
Did anyone care, even a little bit?

Reach out to a hero, lend them your ear
Seek out professional help to ease their pain
You have nothing to lose and everything to gain
Behind The Badge, they helped you without a fear
Reciprocate, help them find reasons to live again.

© Brenda Reeves
May 21, 2005

Sergeant Paul Accardo
New Orleans Police Department
Public Information Officer
Resident: New Orleans, Louisiana
Age: 36
Died: September 03, 2005

Rick L. Brincefield
Investigations
Miami Dade County Sheriff's Department
October 22, 1961 ~ October 20, 1995

Gary Celentani
Firefighter ~ FDNY Squad 288
Resident: Flushing, Queens, New York
Age: 33
Died September 26, 2002

Patrolman Lawrence Celestine
New Orleans Police Department
Resident: New Orleans, Louisiana
Died: September 02, 2005

Peter A. Maginnis
Sergeant ~ NYPD 62nd Precinct
Resident: New York
March 2, 1965 ~ September 20, 2002

Paul "Greg" Payne
Deputy U.S. Marshal
U.S. Marshal's Service, Mobile, Alabama
Resident: Spanish Fort, Alabama
October 18, 1959 - March 20, 2003

Your children love and miss you very much!
Sagapo


Daniel Stewart
Paramedic ~ FDNY Battalion 44
Brownsville Section - Brooklyn, New York
Resident: Long Island, New York
Age: 27
Died June 07, 2002


Firefighter Ministries, Inc.
Protecting and promoting the spiritual, mental, and physical well-being of emergency service workers everywhere.


Tears Of A Cop Website

Tears Of A Cop Support Group
This is a mail list created to learn and share ideas on the prevention of law enforcement stress, PTSD and suicide. It is also a place to offer each other support and comfort. Active-duty, retired and disabled officers are welcomed to join in the discussions. We also encourage the family and friends of deceased law enforcement professionals who have died by suicide to join for support and understanding.
~~~ People helping people ~~~

The Law Enforcement Wellness Association
An internationally prominent faculty of professionals dedicated to the overall physical and psychological health of the nation's law enforcement personnel. The Law Enforcement Wellness Association believes that through proper training, guidance, education, and support many of our nation's law enforcement officers can be restored to lifelong health, fitness, and overall wellness. Officers who understand the importance of taking care of themselves become positive role models within their departments, their families, and their communities. Training and education is the key.

Griefing Behind the Badge
Peggy Sweeney Rainone, HUGS founder, offers training programs and workshops for emergency response and public safety professionals, their families and department chaplains. HUGS believes in a humanistic as well as a holistic approach to healing following loss and trauma. Today, HUGS continues to meet the needs of children and adults coping with an array of traumas in their life.

National Center for Police Officers with PTSD
On-Line resource center and crisis hot-line for police officers, families and friends on PTSD issues. Provides treatment referrals, court case information, headlines, and informative links.

National P.O.L.I.C.E. Suicide Foundation
The mission of the National P.O.L.I.C.E. Suicide Foundation is to provide suicide awareness and prevention training programs and support services that will meet the psychological and spiritual needs of emergency workers and their families.

    

    

Music: "Glorious Past Boundless Future"
Performed by Air Force Reserve Command Pipe Band
Robins Air Force Base
Warner Robins, Georgia
Used With Permission From MSgt. Scott Gunn
AFRC Band, 1st Sergeant

Graphics Created by Brenda Reeves, Co-Founder of SMHAI

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