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Loving Memories Your gentle face and patient smile With sadness we recall You had a kindly word for each And died beloved by all. The voice is mute and stills the heart, That loved us well and true, Ah, bitter was the trial to part From one so good as you. You are not forgotten loved one, Nor will you ever be, As long as life and memory last We will remember thee. We miss you now our hearts are sore, As times go by we miss you more, Your loving smile, your gentle face, No one can fill your vacant place. Author Unknown |
In Our Hearts We thought of you with love today, But that is nothing new. We thought about you yesterday, And days before that too. We think of you in silence. We often speak your name. Now all we have are memories, And your picture in a frame. Your memory is our keepsake, With which we'll never part. God has you in His keeping. We have you in our heart. Unknown Author |

This memory has been coming back with a vengeance and it bothers me that there might have been some innuendos that I didn't pick up on from Alex. The night Alex completed suicide I had picked him up from school and was driving home. We lived across town from where Alex was going to private school. On the way home he told me this story:
There was a married couple that had a lot of financial burdens and they were barely making it from paycheck to paycheck. One evening they got an anonymous phone call from a man making them an offer. The offer was if he gave them alot of money, enough to take care of their bills and be rich, would they go for it. They said sure, what was the catch. The man told them that someone in the world would have to die for their wish to come true. They talked about it amongst themselves, and asked the stranger would they know the person who would die? The man said it wouldn't be anyone they knew. They couldn't go through with it, even though it would be someone they didn't know - taking a life was just to high of a price to be paid for their desires to be met. So they said no. The stranger gave them his number in case they changed their minds. The wife kept thinking about it all night and thought how great it would be to have the burden of their financial issues lifted from their shoulders. So, the next morning after her husband left for work she called the stranger back and told him she wanted to go ahead with the deal. Within hours she received enough money to pay off their bills and pad her and her husband to live comfortably for the rest of their lives. Hours after that she received a phone call that her husband had just been killed in a car accident. She immediately called the stranger back and told him that he said that no one she knew would die from this wish being fulfilled. The stranger on the other end simply replied to her "Did you really know him?"
After Alex told me this story he turned to me and said that was "Funny huh Mom?" I told him no I didn't think it was funny at all and asked him about it. It was just such a strange story (joke as he called it). He said he heard it at school. I don't know. This story has been bothering me so much and I just wish I would have asked Alex what he meant by it. What could he have possibly been thinking at the time he told me this story? Maybe that he was a happy little boy on the outside but there was more to him then I even knew. As a mother I thought I knew everything about him. It's one of those what if moments with me. Dang! If only... Debbie

Memory is a child walking along the seashore. You never can tell what small pebble it will pick up and store away among its treasured things.
Pierce Harris

