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~ Heavenly Stars ~

Perhaps they are not stars in the sky, but rather openings where our loved ones shine down to let us know they are happy.

Eskimo Legend

                                   *~* Heavenly Stars ~ In Memory of Suicide Victims *~*


Our Heavenly Stars, was created in memory of our loved one's lost to suicide. If you would like to submit your loved one lost to suicide, click on the email link at the bottom of the page - send your submission of a short writing that you wish to share (it doesn't have to be a poem - anything that you would like to share is fine), your loved one's name, their dates and your name with your relationship to the one you are remembering. We will add your submission at our first available moment. You need not be a member of our organization or any of our affiliates to send a submission.

~ Thank you for stopping in and we hope you have a comforting celestial visit. ~



"It ended... With his body changed to light, A star that burns for ever in that sky".

Aztec - American Indian Proverb


The Most Glorious Star In The Sky

Late at night, I sit and look to the sky,
Watching the sparkling stars and wondering why.

The stars twinkle, ever so beautiful and bright,
The biggest and brightest one, I won't let out of my sight.

Look, it glows, just like your fabulous smile once did,
"It's your star, I know it is", says a voice in my head.

Is that you, are you really there, guiding my way?
The star strobes excitedly, "Yes, and for always!", it appears to say.

You may be gone from this Earth, but you did not die,
For I know now, you are the most glorious star in the sky.

© Brenda Reeves 06-06-2004
In Loving Memory of Jay D. Jacobson
07-31-1978 ~ 03-04-2002
South Dakota, USA
~ Memorial Site ~



‘MY WAYNE’

When I look at your picture and in those blue eyes
My heart skips a beat as I once again realize
I’ll never see them sparkle as they used to do
And the reality is too very true

I try to remember those infant to maturing young man ways
And all the wonderful times we had during those days
Your constant mischevious grins that I deeply miss
As I long for one more chldhood hug and kiss

My heart now has a hole that is exactly your size
As I plead with my mind to stop questioning the ‘whys’
I’ll miss you forever and always have you near
Your were my first born child and all so very dear

No one can take the place of my son or ‘My Wayne’
No one can banish the loss and the ever present pain
I try to look ahead to that day we’ll meet in His land
And you will be there to guide me with your loving hands

Your time in my life was short and too quickly gone
But our next time together gets closer with each new dawn
Your angel wings touches and signs that you send to me
Are moments of happiness and to my heart the key

I’ll love you forever and even beyond that day
You’ll always be my son –my very special Wayne.

© EA Gay
In Loving Memory of William Wayne Cox
June 24, 2004 8:38am
~ Memorial Site ~



Fly With The Eagle

For the heart and soul and spirit to be free,
you'll ride on the wings of the eagle.
And see all the things you never seen before.
Your grandfather has opened the door.
Though tears may fall from time to time
your forever in our hearts and minds.
So soar now Randy there's so much to see,
your heart and soul home you will be.

In Loving Memory of Randy Reed Hecox
© July 26, 1999 By Roadkill Rusty
Randy's Step-Dad
~ Memorial Site ~



My Angels

It is because of your passing that many of us are finally learning just how precious life truly is.
It is a shame that we are learning this way.
I thank thee everyday for what I have.
I know in my heart that you are at peace.
If I could give one gift to you it would be thank you ...
Thank-You ...
for leaving us, but not leaving us.
Feel the love I send to you as I feel the love you send to me.
Soar high my loves, you no longer have the pain.

Those of us that are left behind...learning from you...

© Shelley Nelson
In Loving Memory Of
Amanda Mae Nelson
1-26-79 to 1-21-01
Tasher Lee Nelson
4-21-97 to 1-21-01



Jay

Dearest Jay,
We have so many questions since you've left this earth.
I know that we will probably never have the answers.
I'd like for you to know that we miss you and love you so much.

Grandma-Joan
Jay Jacobson - beloved grandson
07-31-78 to 03-04-02
~ Memorial Site ~



NOAH’S SONG

Noah you were loved by many
Your life made a difference in this world
You may have thought that you were a burden
But all of us knew that wasn’t true

I don’t know why you felt you had to go
The thoughts that were in your mind
Only God knows

We sit here remembering
All the times we shared
And it hurts that there won’t be any more
Yeah it hurts that there won’t be any more

Tell me why
You left without a word
Tell me why
Your silent cries weren’t heard
Tell me why
You left this world
And you didn’t say good - bye
Tell me why , Tell me why
Tell me why , Tell me why

Your family is grieving
And so are your friends
Your life touched more hearts than you knew
And even though you didn’t say good - bye to us
This song helps us say good - bye to you

We could fill our lives with “if only “
But it really wouldn’t do us any good
Still I wish that you where here
And I wish that I could say
All the things I would have said if I knew
That I would not see you again

Tell me why
You left without a word
Tell me why
Your silent cries weren’t heard
Tell me why
You left this world
And you didn’t say good - bye
Tell me why , Tell me why
Tell me why , Tell me why
Tell me why , Tell me why , Tell me why , Tell me why

By Trish MacMillan ~ Briercrest Bible College

LOVE IS FOREVER OUR BABY NOAH
MOM , DAD, AND NAOMI
NOAH BRENNER FEB 02, 1984 ~ JULY 12, 2003


My Star Gazer

Whenever there would be something happening in the sky at night
I would find out on-line and drag Alex out to gaze up in the sky with me.
I remember one night we stayed up real late to see a comet go by.
We would constantly stay up and swing on the swing in the backyard to watch the stars.
We lived in the valley so there was not alot of city lights and we could see the whole sky.
Maybe I'll go look for Alex in the night sky tonight.

Star light, star bright, I wish, I wish this wish tonight.
I wish for a sign from my little Alex tonight!

Debbie Rivera
In Loving Memory of
Alexander "Alex" Joesph Gutierrez
August 03, 1988 ~ April 11, 2003


Amy Rachelle Walsh
November 10, 1983 ~ April 16, 2004
California, United States
~ Memorial Site ~


Alan Handegard
13 September 1974 ~ 17 November 1995
Rogaland, Norway

THE NIGHT YOU DIED

The stars were blazing the night you decided to die...
The sky was black and peaceful...

one tablet. the stars started shining brighter..
10 tablets....clouds started forming..

20 tablets....quiet wispers from up above..
'Dont do it..it is not your time'....

40 tablets...the whispers turn into a herald of voices..

60 tablets..can you hear the angels sing?

75 tablets...the heavens roar..
the angels sing..

and a single hand stretches out..
and a soft voice is spoken..

'Come my son, come rest in my arms'..

The heavens are still once again..
the angels voices are once again silent..
The stars shine brighter than before..

but look...theres an extra star..and it shines the brightest...

Sleep tight little brother...

© Barbara Warren



Her Star Shines Bright

When I looked into the sky
On that fateful night
I didn't see a single star,
Not even one in sight.

The days passed slowly,
The clouds just stayed.
The darkness of
The choice she'd made.

Then while gazing at
The sky one night,
I saw a star
That shone so bright.

I hadn't seen it
There before.
A sign that I
Could not ignore.

She was there
With only love
Up in heaven
With God above.

©Jill Goodnight-More'e
Tisha's mom forever
July 25,1984 - February 20,2004
So much love, so little time.



Dearest Jason

HE ONLY TOOK MY HAND

Last night while I was trying to sleep,
My son's voice I did hear
I opened my eyes and looked around
But he did not appear.

He said "Mom you've got to listen,
You've got to understand
God didn't take me from you, Mom
He only took my hand

When I called out in pain that night,
The instant that I died,
He reached down and took my hand,
And pulled me to his side.

He pulled me up and saved me
From the misery and pain
My body was hurt so badly inside,
I could never be the same.

My search is really over now,
I've found happiness within,
All the answers to my empty dreams
And all that might have been.

I love you and miss you so,
And I'll always be nearby.
My body's gone forever,
But my spirit will never die!

And so, you must go on now,
Live one day at a time.
Just understand-
God did not take me from you,
He only took my hand.

We love you and miss you
Mom and Mikey

Jason Brian Smith
11-06-83 ~ 08-9-04



Christopher Paul Hime

You told me that life wasn't that simple for you
I thought that my love could see you through
Some pain doesn't heal at all
When you are so use to walls
I thought that I could fix it, patch it and heal the pain
But now you have left and nothing is the same
My love for you will always shine
and you forever will be my CHIME
May the love in my heart lead you to the light

Christopher Paul Hime 5/29/68 ~ 11/9/04
Your souls partner Joyce



Michael David VanGieson
Born to earth 08-16-1980 and reborn to heaven 02-09-2002.

My beautiful first born child,
like a bright star that was extinguished too early,
you will alway shine in my heart.
Love mama...



Sagittarius

Now you fly with quiver and bow
You watch upon us with a starry glow
Heaven is lucky now
Daughter of Jupiter
Your Laughter is heard
When December blows her chill
Galloping softly on a Turquoise Hill

I Miss You

Beverly Burgess
December 3, 1974 - November 1997
Sent by CBRadioRiot



David Ryan Strackbein

My Dear Daddy...
I am all grown up now and missing you is more then I can explain.
I miss all the I didnt get to do's or things I never got to say.
You walking me down the isle.. giving me away at marriage.
The Birth of your 5 grand babies or trials and tribulations.
I miss never getting to call you or hearing your voice.
I miss not telling you my life or giving you big hugs.
I miss not having you to talk to about all that daughter stuff.
Oh daddy I wish you could see.. just how much this impacted my life...
your not being here how it's all hard to take in strife.
I know your walking in heaven ...probably shinning on me now .
And god has taken you in like a ray of golden sun .
But in my mind, it's hard to realize that your really gone!!!
Daddy .. hear me now .. if I never say it again .
I do love you so much and miss the things that should have been.

Love always and forever ..
Your lil girl forever
Lisa M. Grubb

David Ryan Strackbein
11/05/1954 to 03/20/1985
Tulsa Oklahoma



Dearest Mikey

Dearest Mikey,
You put the son in sunshine.
You were my brightest star.
You lit my day and my night.
From life you are so far.
From my heart you are in sight.
I miss you so.
I love you always.
Shine my boy.
Where ever you are.

Michael (Mikey) VonHoff
06/03/82 - 6/05/05
Tampa, Florida



In Loving Memory of

Brian Salser 10-03-71 ~ 03-14-02

Erin L. Stover ~ "Baby Girl"



Remembering Tracy

Tracy,
Not a day goes by when I don't think of you.
I miss you more than words could ever say.
You were a wonderful sister and I love you forever.

Always, Julie

In Loving Memory of Tracy Richards (Weinshrott)
8/24/75 to 7/20/04
by her little sister Julie
Wisconsin, USA



Memories of Sean M. O'Brien

You are always in my heart.
The day you were born I was so happy.
Our first grandson.
So many happy memories.
My heart was broken when you left.

I love you and miss you so much,
Grandma



Remembering Diane

You can shed tears that she is gone
or you can smile because she has lived.

You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.

Your heart can be empty because you can't see her
or you can be full of the love you shared.

You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember her and only that she's gone
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.

You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back
or you can do what she'd want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

"In Loving Memory Of My Mother" Diane Lynn Waddell 09/10/55 11/26/96



Beautiful Brittany

My Dearest Brittany,
I miss you with all my heart and soul.
I will never understand how we could not have gotten through this excistence we call life together.
Now, I am left to do it without you.
I wish I could see your smile one more time.
Hear one more stupid joke or even a "Just Kidding mom".
Even an hour late for curfew would be o.k.
My heart is broken forever.
I am so sorry your life was so hard to bear here on earth.
I am so sorry if I wasn't a good enough mom.
I am so sorry if I let you down.
I am so sorry that you had to choose to leave us behind.
We love you baby girl and we miss you more than words can even describe.
I will see you again someday.
Until that day, rest in peace and be happy.
Please be happy for once in your short life.

I love you,
Mommy
Brittany Nicole Kish
11/29/88 -4/11/05
Lynette (mom of Brittany)



Missing Brian
Brian Wooten
August 6, 1969 ~ August 29, 2005

Brian and I had a very special bond, our friendship surpassed all others.
We shared more than most people would share.
We loved each other.
Brian was mentally suffering.
He decided it was time to just end everything.
He shot himself in the head.
My poor poor Brian.
He is now free..... but not to me.
I know I can't have him back, but I need him back so badly.
How do I face the days ahead?
Look in the sky and think of my Bri.

I love you my Bri Bri.
Lisa Chiarenza



My Angel Amy
Amy Lynn Kampert
July 15, 1982 ~ August 25, 2005

Even though I know you were
lifted on wings of love
to a new tomorrow,
And even though I know Heaven
has welcomed a
very special angel,
I can only hope my beautiful
memories of you
light my way for me
on the dark path I walk.
I will always grieve for you
my only daughter, my only child.
You will always live on
in my heart,
Until the day I walk with you again.

Love,
Mom
~ Debbie Kampert ~



"SCOTT - I Wish You Only Knew"

How much I really did and do love you, I wish you only knew
How much you meant so much to me, I’d take things back and start anew

You gave up to soon as you thought you and I could never be,
You felt in your heart that you were all alone, if only you knew you had me

You felt your life was difficult and you could not go on,
You just did not know how we would feel after you were gone

You had so much to offer, you meant the world to us,
You left us so soon, without a sound, not even a hush

I wish for one more day just to be with you, to be in your arms,
Waiting for a joke, a giggle, or you giving me your special charm

I would walk to the end of the world and travel for miles,
Just to see the squint you gave with your smirk of a smile

I’d take the pain you felt and give you hope again
To tell you every waking moment “I LOVE YOU” again and again

I’d take things back and wish we never temporarily went our separate ways,
For we will be united soon, for only you know the days

I just wanted you to know, you will always have my heart,
For we will be together soon, as our souls will never ever be apart

In Loving Memory Of
Scott Edward Griffin
May 29,1973 ~ October 9, 2004

You are my sunshine! My love always and forever....
~Christina
~ Memorial Site ~



Shine On

I always thought how nice it would be to buy a star.
Never once thinking that you would one day fullfill that request.
You see, you were destined to be a star.
I thought maybe...you would become a famous musician. Your name up in lights for the world to see.
Or maybe ... a famous artist.
Your drawings would draw crowds from around the world.
How many times did you and I sit beneath the stars and talk
about where we wanted to go in life?
Your family and I miss you with all our hearts.
So if by chance you can hear our hearts cry......
Then shine out for us in the mighty sky and fill
our hearts with the warmth of your smile.
Now my wish for you is fullfill.........
Your name is now in lights for the world to know
That YOU are loved and treasured beyond the galaxy....
Shine On Scott ...our love forever more !!

Aunt Wanda
In Loving Memory of Scott Cole Walker
10-28-1976 ~ 08-17-1997
Mississippi , USA
~ Memorial Site ~



In Loving Memory
Steven James Clancy

01/09/78 - 08/08/05

I don't think you knew how much you were and are still loved! My heart is broken..........I will never be the same.

I miss you so much, but hope your pain has finally ended. I pray for your soul every day

I look forward to the day when we meet again.

Love, Mom



In Loving Memory of Dinger
Joseph P Engeldinger

09/06/77 ~ 05/08/05

'Yesterday'

I thought about you yesterday
And tears ran down my face
As I remembered all the memories
That can never be erased
Though it was 8 months ago
Every now and then
Something makes me think of you
And of what might have been
I remember all the good times
The laughter and the tears
Memories that warm my heart
When I look back on those happy years
But every time I remember
My heart begins to ache
Those special times weren't real for you
Your smile was just a fake
You thought that no one loved you
Your heart was breaking inside
Your soul was crying tears
That you tried so desperately to hide
And then I remember that morning
The words ring in my head
"Sit down, we have bad news for you, Eve, Dinger's dead"
I wept so bitterly over you
I cried for your hurt inside
I knew it was no accident
I knew you committed suicide
I cried that you had hurt so much
And cried that you died alone
I cried because I blamed myself
I cried because I should have known
It's been a couple months
I get stronger as time goes by
I try to put the past behind me
And forget that you chose to die
But then something makes me think of you
And of that tragic day
And I still remember
Remember like it was yesterday

©EALS 2006






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