"Before you were conceived I wanted you.
Before you were born I loved you.
Before you were here an hour I would die for you.
This is the miracle of a mother's love."
M. Hawkins

Welcome to Our Mother's Day Celebration

We have created this special Mother's Day Celebration in honor of all mothers affected by a suicide loss. All of these beautiful moms are always in our hearts and minds as they try to go through life, nurturing, loving and all of the other wonderful things that mothers do, as they also try to recover from suicide grief. Some mothers are those that have lost a child, some are those that have lost a brother, sister or friend. All mother's are honored here, no matter their relationship to the one they have lost. Your efforts to continue on each day while grieving is very deserving of our acknowledgements.

Here, you may share all forms of Mother's Day thoughts, feelings, desires or whatever you would like.
Some ideas are:

Writing a message to your mother lost to suicide;
Send a loving note to a mother you know that is suffering a loss, even if the loss was not her child;
Sharing a time in your life where either being a mother was a special occasion or a special event happened or when someone else came through as a mother for you;
Acknowledge your own mother and what they have done for you, such as supporting you through your grief;
Celebrate your motherhood of your child;
Send your blessings for your child;
Place items, pictures, copies of saved Mother's Day cards from your child and etc.;
Siblings of those lost to suicide could place notes and share memories of Mother's Day's past;
Whatever else that you would like to share, it does not have to be listed here.

If you would like to submit items to our Mother's Day Celebration, click on the email link at the bottom of the page. We will add your submission at our first available moment. You need not be a member of our organization or any of our affiliates to send a submission.

A mother holds her children's hands for a while;
their hearts forever.

~ Author Unknown ~

Your Mother Is Always With You

Your mother is always with you...
She's the whisper of the leaves
as you walk down the street.

She's the smell of bleach in
your freshly laundered socks.

She's the cool hand on your
brow when you're not well.

Your mother lives inside
your laughter. She's crystallized
in every tear drop...

She's the place you came from,
your first home.. She's the map you
follow with every step that you take.

She's your first love and your first heart
break....and nothing on earth can separate you.

Not time, Not space...
Not even death....
will ever separate you
from your mother....

You carry her inside of you....

Author Unknown

Two Instead Of One

My beautiful, 70 year old mother
Grieves for two instead of one
She grieves for Jay, her second oldest grandson
Who took his life, alone in his bedroom, with a gun
For him, she has cried a million and one tears
And continues to ask "why" for more than 3 years

My mother with the heart made of gold
Grieves for two instead of one
She grieves for Jay's father, her oldest son
Who's whole world has come undone
She feels his pain, deep within her chest
To him, her arms reach out lovingly to hold

My gentle, kind and beloved mother
Grieves for two instead of one
This Mother's Day and until the end of time
Jay took a piece of her heart with him that morning
And her heart breaks over the pain her son feels
Without any regrets, she bears this heavy burden
As this is the price she pays for loving her family deeply

My mother, who loves unconditionally
Grieves for two instead of one
What I wouldn't do to take away your pain
And to wipe all of your sadness and tears away
To help mend your broken, aching heart
I would do anything to make feel whole again

© Brenda Reeves - April 19, 2005
To my mom, Joan Jacobson
Grandmother of Jay D. Jacobson
07-31-1978 ~ 03-04-2002
I love you mom!

Dear Mom,

The words I want to share with you are sometimes hard to find. You lost 2 daughters when they were 7 and 8 years old. So you know some of the pain that I feel in my heart with losing my boy. What you don't know, is the pain I feel for you, seeing what his taking his life has done to you. It has thrown you into stages of Alzheimer's for which I am not entirely regretful for as it has tamed you and made you meek which you never were. Always proud and strong you fought like a warrior before Alex left us. I used to be that way too; just know that there is still a little bit of a fight left in me.

I mourn with you - I can tell that they never let you properly grief your daughter's deaths. I know Alex is with them telling them all about you. They probably envy him because he got 6 and 7 more years with you then they did! Alex loved you so much. You were the one who would lie next to him and let him talk you to sleep. The things he shared with you, I would scold him and beg him not to air the families dirty laundry with you but he loved and trusted you so much that he could do that and not feel shame. You were a big part of his life, oh how he loved you.

I just wish that his parting didn't hurt you like it does. I know I am the only one who will sit and cry with you. Sometimes that is double duty for me, but I will do it because you are my mom and as long as you hurt, I will hurt too. I just wish there was some way I could make you realize that it was nothing you did or didn't do that caused him to take his life. I just wish I had the old you back that strong shouldered woman who carried a lot of my problems and would help me out of most of them. But now it is my turn to carry you and I will as long as you are living and breathing I will be here for you and will hold you up strong and listen to you to tell me the same story 10 zillion times and not get impatient with you. For you - you have done this for me and my boy more then 10 zillion times. I love you so much I don't think you will ever know. Your daughter, as you know me, LaLa.

Debbie
Missing you my gentle giant!
Debbie - Alex's Mommy
08/03/88 ~ 04/11/03

In loving memory of my niece, Kelly Nicole Rinaldi, who we lost to suicide on Mother's Day 2004. To her mother, Diane, who lost her only child and best friend. On this Mother's Day I wish you love and pray the LORD gives you peace.

I love you very much!
Your Big Sister
Susie

Dear Mom,

I can only imagine the heartbreak of Mother’s Day for you.
My heart is shattered by Wayne’s death with grief I never knew
But to grieve for the death of a grandson - also your daughter’s son
Is a grief beyond what I know because it’s not just for one

How my own heartaches must chip away at yours
Mutliplying the grief in a way I’m not sure I could endure
You have been there for me in so many ways
Even in those darkest and most painful grief filled days

It took me while to comprehend the depth of your loss and pain
Your heart reacting to my suffering while also grieving for Wayne
How I wish I could soften some of the layers of the grief
And wipe away the tears as your heart continues to weep

Dear Mother, I ask that you remember as you also mourn
The Life of Wayne - not just the death of my first born
He held a special place in my heart just as well as yours
And one day we shall see him again, sitting with the Lord

I love you!

Dear Mr. Hallmark

I am writing to you from heaven, and though it must appear
a rather strange idea, I see everything from here.

I just popped in to visit your stores to find a card
A card of love for my mother, as this day for her is hard.

There must be some mistake I thought, every card you could imagine
Except I could not find a card, from a child who lives in heaven.

She is still a mother too, no matter where I reside
I had to leave, she understands, but oh the tears she's cried.

I thought that if I wrote you, that you would come to know
that though I live in heaven now, I still love my mother so.

She talks with me, and dreams with me; we still share laughter too,
Memories our way of speaking now, would you see what you could do?

My mother carries me in her heart, her tears she hides from sight.
She writes poems to honor me, sometimes far into the night

She plants flowers in my garden, there my living memory dwells.
She writes to other grieving parents, trying to ease their pain as well.

So you see Mr. Hallmark, though I no longer live on earth
I must find a way to remind her of her wondrous worth.

She needs to be honored, and remembered too,
Just as the children of earth will do.

Thank you Mr. Hallmark, I know you'll do your best.
I have done all I can do; to you I'll leave the rest.

Find a way to tell her, how much she means to me
Until I can do it for myself, when she joins me in eternity.

Author Unknown

Mom,

Jessi ~ Your Angel Always

Jessica Kassandra Haffer
October 2, 1989 ~ November 23, 2003

A Special Corsage forMomma

I send you this special rose
to go in the corsage your wear.
I know it has wilted a bit.
But I know that you don't care.

I planted the flowers just for you.
I fertilized each rose with love.
This garden of roses I planted for you,
grows in the Heaven's above.

I see other mother's with a corsage.
I want you to have one too.
So I touch the roses & kiss them...
Before I put them together for you.

Now wear this corsage that I send you...
Wear it with all my love & your pride.
For it comes from the bottom of my heart...
Watered by the tears you've cried.

Mother's Love Remains

A mother’s love is so special that words cannot describe
No matter how many cards and poems that always seem to try
There is a bond with a child that exists beyond this world
And the love between the two as precious as a pearl

The love of a mother is more than one can see
Our hearts are molded to contain the love that is key
The loss of a child does not halt a mother’s love
For it continues to grow until we meet Above

A mother’s love is special and unique to every one
As is her grief when her child’s life is done
The love continues to flow, seeping through the pain
So each mom will know, the bond with child remains

Music: "Dear Mom" from Soulkeeper Music
From the album "Zion Sing!"
Words and music by: Melissa Champlion