Lauren Niederer
October 12, 1987 ~ May 05, 2004
My Beautiful Angel
Lovingly shared by Lauren's mother, Maria Niederer
But A Moment
You'll always be my child - I think of you each day,
Even though you must remain so very far away.
A love as strong as this, I've never felt before;
But you had to go away, up through Heaven's door.
You'll never have to suffer, or feel pain or hate,
Just peace and love and happiness - God has given you this fate,
I hope that you can feel just how much I care;
And, when my days are over, in a flash - I will be there.
Pure unbounding joy! We'll never have to part.
You'll be right by my side - and not just in my heart.
But, until that day, when my dream is real -
I think I understand, just how I should feel...
"Mom, I am fine!" this must be what you would say -
"Please don't be sad, we'll meet again one day:
I'm with God above - so don't cry for me,
Our parting is but a moment compared to eternity."
Author Unknown
Lauren was born by emergency C-Section on Columbus Day October 12, 1987. She came into this world three weeks early weighing in at 5 lbs. 14 oz. She looked like a little chicken. She was so wanted and loved. She was so precious and very special to me. I had such a tough time getting pregnant with her. I finally gave up trying and boom, I was pregnant. I had a horrible and stressful pregnancy. The last two months I ended up in bed. She wanted to be born so much.
Lauren never really bonded with everyone. The only people she would go to was her sister, myself, my husband and mother-in-law. Lauren really loved my mother in law. They had a special bond. Lauren thrived and grew into a beautiful child. She was a little dower, but that was Lauren.
Lauren did ok in school until the 5th grade. She was diagnosed with a learning disability and auditory processing syndrome. She did not process information like other children. She was also on the immature side. But, everyone loved Lauren. Lauren had such an imagination. Kids loved to play with her. She was such a tomboy, always playing with the boys, football, climbing trees, jumping fences, etc. She was very athletically talented. Always did a sport, soccer, softball, basketball.
When Lauren became a teenager, she was a typical girl teenager. Hormonal.. Very sensitive. She did OK in school. She did the best that she could with her learning disability. However, she was always embarrassed by it. I always attributed her moodiness to her being a teenager. We were so close.
In the 9th grade, Lauren tried out for the varsity swim team and made it. She was a natural in the water. She earned two varsity letters. I think that was when everything changed. She found herself with new friends (girls on the swim team). They were together everyday of the week for practices and swim meets. They also were a little older than Lauren. There weren't very many freshmen on the team.
When Lauren turned 16 she got her drivers permit. She was so proud of herself and couldn't wait to drive and get a car. She couldn't wait to get her drivers license and drive her friends to school. But something happened that I will never understand why.
Lauren and her nephew and Godson, Kyle
Lauren, her sister Nicole and Nicole's son, Kyle at Xmas 2000.
A Mother's Broken Heart
My tears have not stopped, they have only become silent,
They flourish to the pain that has swelled through my body so violent.
Shuddering to my soul, viewing upon myself with such malice,
Roller coaster emotions surrender to me and leave me empty and callous.
I want to smash to a pulp, this awful reality,
To regain what I have lost and have her returned to me.
Return my treasure, "My Baby"
Including her spirit, I want her to be......
Here with me!!
Author Unknown
Lauren and her nephew and Godson, Kyle
Lauren, My Beautiful Angel
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One Little Candle
I lit a candle tonight, in honor of you
Remembering your life, and all the times we'd been through.
Such a small little light the candle made
Until I realized how much in darkness it lit the way.
All the tears I've cried in all my grief and pain
What a garden they grew, watered with human rain.
I sometimes can't see beyond the moment, in hopeless despair.
But then your memory sustains me, in heartaches repair.
I can wait for the tomorrow, when my sorrows ease
Until then I'll light this candle, and let my memories run free.
Author Unknown
 
  
Music: To Where You Are
Performed By Josh Groban
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Contents: © Maria Niederer 2005, unless otherwise stated.
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